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Posted on August 15, 2007 - Filed Under Personal |
Okay this is a strange case.
Maybe someone out there understands it better than me.
I saw my ex a few weeks ago.
I saw her in a clothing store. My brother and I where walking in the store. All of a sudden he waved to someone. I looked at the direction and saw it was my ex (I’m not gonna mention her name here) . She waved back at him. I though no problem so I wanted to greet her. I though I wave and then walk up to her to talk. This did not go according to plan. I waved at her and she turned away. Clearly she doesn’t want to see, talk or have anything to do with me.
Okay, I’ll tell you the circumstances the relationship ended. At that point in time I was living with her. The relationship was stuck in one place. She had some emotional desires I could not fulfill. We where having a fight about that. She wanted me to talk about my emotions. I can’t do that. I can’t talk about it to the people I’ve known my whole life and not my girlfriend I’ve know less then a year.
In the fight she said “Maybe we should think about this relationship. Think about if we should continue.” I left for work and when I came back (4 in the morning, I’m a bartender) I slept on the couch. The next day she was working all day so we did not have a chance to talk. The following day she asked me if I had though about our relationship. I said I have and I don’t think it’s a good Idea to continue. So I left and returned to my brother.
A few days later she contacted me and asked if we could try again but living apart. I wanted to try it. She came here one day and the timing was not good. I was horny as hell. And I did not know what to do with the situation. Think about it. Your trying the relationship and you don’t really know where you stand and on top of that your horny. If your not in the situation It sounds funny but believe me it wasn’t. I couldn’t touch her, look at her or anything without thinking about sex. So I was a bit distant. A few days later she told me she was very insulted by the way I acted and she though the relationship should end. So it did.
I though I knew her. At the time of the relationship she was the most grown-up girl I ever dated. After worth my thoughts on that changed. She ended friendships with everybody that had anything to do with me. Friends that did not pick sides where shoved aside because they did not pick her side. I told all my friends I did not want the end of the relationship to be the end of our friendship. I did not want them to end there friendship with ether one of us. I had hope that my ex and I would eventually become friends.
This is more then a year ago. She can still drink my blood. She blocked me on hyves. She turns away or walks away every time she sees me.
Every time I think about it there is one thing that comes to mind. She was the one suggesting to think about the relationship. She reminded me about it two days later. She told me she said that in an emotional state. The second time wasn’t in an emotional state. We slept in the same bed and we just woke up.
The way I see it she was also questioning the relationship. Why else would she suggest to think about if we should stop. She was the one that put the possibility of a breakup on the table. I was the one that made the decided to breakup. So why does she hate me so much??
If it was just another girl, just someone I knew that hated me so much, I wouldn’t be bothered with it. But this was a girl I cared about, I lived with. She was the last one I saw before going to sleep and the first one I saw when I woke up. I guess I still care for her in a way, or else it wouldn’t bother me this much.
In the future if she wants to talk or something, I am willing to listen.
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